Quiet Disappointment

October 16, 2021

A look, a snub, a slander
Says you’re not enough
A heap of indignation
A morsel of love

Silent disappointment
A rolling of the eyes
To never miss a moment
To cut you down to size

The sadness of a soul
Who gives to take away
A sigh that’s filled with scorn
A heart made out of clay

by Richard W. Bray

The truth that looks you in the eye

September 26, 2021

It’s pretty easy to tell when someone is lying to themself.* But you can never know another person’s truth. And discovering your own truth is an enormous task.


The truth that looks you in the eye
“No reason why this has to hurt” 
Tell yourself another lie

Compare yourself to other guys
“My loser friends are so inert”
The truth that looks you in the eye

Bewildered every time you cry
“I’m self-aware – I’m so alert”
Tell yourself another lie 

Jump off a bridge – expect to fly
“Only fools return to dirt?” 
The truth that looks you in the eye

Deception is your alibi
“I’m guiltless, honest and overt”
Tell yourself another lie

Dismiss your actions with a sigh
“I never aimed to disconcert”
The truth that looks you in the eye
Tell yourself another lie

by Richard W. Bray

*For example, when someone says I don’t care, it usually means they care a lot.

cocoon

September 17, 2021

everything that's right
i discovered long ago
i don't have to listen
cuz i already know

don't need any facts
to show me what's true
my feelings are my guide 
i live my point of view

i don't have any need
for folks who disagree
they're just a bunch of haters
but they'll never hurt me

i need to stay pure
in a very safe space
that's the only cure
for the human race

by Richard W. Bray

a man-hating woman and a woman-hating man

September 8, 2021
a man-hating woman
and a woman-hating man
raised a couple kids
in a pool of quicksand

daughter got away
and overcome the sad
angry little mama's boy
blames everything on dad

a man-hating woman 
and a woman-hating man

smells and yells and warning bells
forty years of rage
and they never even knew
they built their own cage

by Richard W. Bray

Hypocrisy

September 5, 2021

Hypocrisy
There’s nothing true
In things that people 
Say and do…

wasting all your time 
until you’re dead
living other people’s lives 
inside your head
you might try
and live your own 
instead

What a clown
That stupid guy 
His perfect life 
Is such a lie…

wasting all your time 
until you’re dead
living other people’s lives 
inside your head
you might try 
and live your own 
instead

by Richard W. Bray

so many things I wanna tell you

August 28, 2021

So many things I wanna tell you
Every single day
So Many things I wanna tell you
But you went away
Parting is all we know of heaven,
And all we need of hell.Emily Dickinson
I heard a funny story
I saw a good film
So many things I wanna tell you
Things to make you smile
So many things I wanna tell you
Every single day
So many things I wanna tell you
But you went away

I had a bad day
I wanted to cry
So many things I wanna tell you
To help me get by
So many things I wanna tell you
Every single day
So many things I wanna tell you
But you went away

I pulled myself together
Dug out of my ditch
So many things I wanna tell you
Life is such a bitch
So many things I wanna tell you
Every single day
So many things I wanna tell you
But you went away

Everything that happened
Was better with you
So many things I wanna tell you
But there’s nothing I can do
So many things I wanna tell you
Every single day
So many things I wanna tell you
But you went away

by Richard W. Bray

for the soldiers I have known

August 18, 2021
there’s no magic words
to protect you from the hurt
there’s no magic words
there’s just a lot of dirt

there’s no magic words
to cover up the lies
there’s no magic words
for the empty in their eyes

there’s no magic words
just try to stay real
keep your people close
and take the time to heal

by Richard W. Bray

You don’t get to say who I am

August 16, 2021

You don’t get to say who I am
You can think what you want
You can tell your favorite aunt
Just remember – I don’t give a damn

I’ll keep being me
I’ll never fit your fantasy 
You don’t get to say who I am

You don’t get to say who I am
You got ideas inside your head
You can put them all to bed
It don't mean a bucket full of spam

I’ll keep being me
I’ll keep on flying free
You don’t get to say who I am

You don’t get to say who I am
So just worry about yourself
It’s so much better for your health
Than talking up a big old mess of sham

I’ll keep being me
I’ll keep on flying free
You don’t get to say who I am

by Richard W. Bray

a kiss, a smile, a rainbow

August 8, 2021
You did not come,
And marching Time drew on, and wore me numb,—Thomas Hardy, A Broken Appointment

I guess I just amused you
But I felt so much more
Wondrous happy singsong
Leading to your door

A kiss, a smile, a rainbow
Aren’t always what they seem
Underneath a streetlamp
Waiting on a dream

Time to face my sorrow
Time to live my fate
The moon is now descending
The hour is getting late

Hope, rejection, heartache 
My never-ending theme
Underneath a streetlamp
Waiting on a dream

Memories immortal
Melodies divine
Radiance and laughter
A moment of your time

A kiss, a smile, a rainbow
Aren’t always what they seem
Underneath a streetlamp
Waiting on a dream

by Richard W. Bray

the love of a child

July 17, 2021

unruly, rambunctious, exhausting and wild
there’s no greater love than the love of a child

boundless, colossal, extending for miles
there is no restraining the love of a child

needy and hopeful, touching and mild
the heaviest burden, the love of a child

investing your marrow, refunded in smiles
there’s no greater love than the love of a child

by Richard W. Bray