Posts Tagged ‘denial’

The thing that’s always there

January 24, 2022





The thing that's always there
In the alcoves of your mind
The thing that makes you lie
The thing that makes you blind

The thing you never mention
When you try and talk sense
Gossip, movies, politics
And current events

The thing that's deep below
And always at the surface
The ghost in the attic
The phantom in the furnace

Try and stay busy
Avoid, disrupt, deny
Wash your brain with booze
It never leaves your side

by Richard W. Bray

From Wichita to Omaha

January 16, 2022

map to nowhere
You can build yourself a mansion
On a big ole pile of sand
You can fabricate a future
In never never land
You can look inside a mirror
And see a fantasy 
You can dream away your future 
On what's never gonna be

Can't get from Wichita to Omaha
If you're stuck in Timbuktu
The things you did are on the way
To things you're gonna do
You can make believe you're someone else
And dream a happy dream
But being who you wanna be
Starts with coming clean

You can wake up every morning
And tell yourself a lie
You can repeat it and repeat it
Until the day you die
You can keep on treading water
And never wonder why
Or you can grab life by the collar
And look it in the eye

Can't get from Wichita to Omaha
If you're stuck in Timbuktu
The things you did are on the way
To things you're gonna do
You can make believe you're someone else
And dream a happy dream
But being who you wanna be
Starts with coming clean

by Richard W. Bray

escape hatch

December 23, 2021

Escape hatch
In the portals of my mind
Hiding with the lies
That take up all my time

Escape hatch
Nowhere else to go
Putting on a mask
Putting on a show

Escape hatch
Can't avoid my brain
The truth is in the task
The truth is in the pain

Escape hatch
Time to shut the door
Time to cut the con
I don't need it anymore

by Richard W. Bray

The truth that looks you in the eye

September 26, 2021

It’s pretty easy to tell when someone is lying to themself.* But you can never know another person’s truth. And discovering your own truth is an enormous task.


The truth that looks you in the eye
“No reason why this has to hurt” 
Tell yourself another lie

Compare yourself to other guys
“My loser friends are so inert”
The truth that looks you in the eye

Bewildered every time you cry
“I’m self-aware – I’m so alert”
Tell yourself another lie 

Jump off a bridge – expect to fly
“Only fools return to dirt?” 
The truth that looks you in the eye

Deception is your alibi
“I’m guiltless, honest and overt”
Tell yourself another lie

Dismiss your actions with a sigh
“I never aimed to disconcert”
The truth that looks you in the eye
Tell yourself another lie

by Richard W. Bray

*For example, when someone says I don’t care, it usually means they care a lot.

cocoon

September 17, 2021

everything that's right
i discovered long ago
i don't have to listen
cuz i already know

don't need any facts
to show me what's true
my feelings are my guide 
i live my point of view

i don't have any need
for folks who disagree
they're just a bunch of haters
but they'll never hurt me

i need to stay pure
in a very safe space
that's the only cure
for the human race

by Richard W. Bray

public relations

March 8, 2020

You torture your kids
You terrorize your wife
But you’re a
Wonderful man
In your fantasy life

Life isn’t public relations
You can’t erase the hurt
With a well-written statement

Nobody believes
Your silly façade
Not your friends
Not your family
Not even your dog

Life isn’t public relations
Are you fake and insincere
From birth to cremation?

By Richard W. Bray

Neurosis is My Superpower

December 1, 2018

Have you tried
Covering your ears
Closing both your eyes
Ignoring life for years
Repeating soothing lies?

Neurosis is my superpower
So long as I don’t leave the tower

Have you tried
Talk, talk, talking
About everyone you know?
Make it super shocking
And never stop the show

Neurosis is my superpower
Spreading bullshit sweet and sour

Have you tried
Rewiring all the neurons
Dashing through your head?
Tell yourself you’re pure in
The things you did and said

Neurosis is my superpower
Eating lies and shitting flowers

By Richard W. Bray

someone to blame

November 11, 2018

Your life is full of pain
Things you can’t explain
You find someone to blame
So every problem is the same

You’re a little bit neurotic
And your ego’s really weak
You’re a scared little lamb
And a fixating geek

Thinking hurts your head
Everything turns red
You focus your frustration
On a person or a nation

You’re a little bit neurotic
And your ego’s really weak
You’re a scared little lamb
And a fixating geek

Will quiet desperation
Explode in devastation?
Will you drive yourself insane
Hiding from the pain?

You’re a little bit neurotic
And your ego’s really weak
You’re a scared little lamb
And a fixating geek

by Richard W. Bray

hang dang dibble

November 3, 2018

I could be a little bitch
But I’d rather be a man
Ain’t gonna let no woman
Tell me who I am

Don’t know hang dang dibble
And I don’t really care
How she’s looking tonight
Or the way she cuts her hair

I’m gonna have another beer
I’m gonna play it where it lays
Till it all disappears
In a honey-colored haze

Don’t know hang dang dibble
And I don’t really care
If she found another lover
To take her everywhere

Don’t matter that she loved me
Like nobody ever did
Won’t get hung up on a feeling
Like a stupid little kid

Don’t know hang dang dibble
And I don’t really care
Living in the past
Won’t never get you anywhere

By Richard W. Bray

Stinky Thinky Said

August 25, 2018

Stinky Thinky said:
Why did God create me?
Everything is wrong
The universe must hate me

Stinky Thinky said:
She asked me for my name
She probably wants my money
Or maybe she’s insane

Stinky Thinky said:
There’s a spot on my skin
I’m probably gonna die
I’m calling all my kin

Stinky Thinky said:
I’m looking out for you
I don’t tell you things
Cuz it makes you so blue

Stinky Thinky said:
Life is such a shame
So much evil in the world
I take all the blame

Stinky Thinky hides
From all of his actions
By creating a storm
Of noise and distraction

by Richard W. Bray