Posts Tagged ‘denial’

wish away the past

November 26, 2022

Telling your life story
Leaving out the facts
Time travels sideways
Turkeys go quack

Nothing that happens
Is ever your fault
Look inside a mirror
See who you're not

Crazy as a hound dog
With a pigeon up its ass
Fantasize a future
Wish away the past

Nothing that happens
Is ever your fault
Look inside a mirror
See who you're not

Blood on all your garments
Dripping from your hand
But you never stop saying
You're an innocent man

Nothing that happens
Is ever your fault
Look inside a mirror
See who you're not

By Richard W. Bray

Fragrant Thinking

November 6, 2022





My doctor said "Your thinking stinks
You're sick inside from all them drinks
You need to fix what's in your head
Or else you're gonna wind up dead"

Fragrant thinking
Keeping people sane
Try to stay happy
But don't deny the pain

Fragrant thinking
You're gonna make mistakes
Don't emphasize the negative
And give yourself a break

Fragrant thinking
Focus on yourself
Don't waste your time obsessing 
About everybody else

Fragrant thinking 
Serenity Prayer
Change the things you can
Who said life was fair? 

Now I filter everything
All the stuff I say and think
Eliminating all the shit
That don't serve me no benefit

by Richard W. Bray 

If You Don’t Tell Yourself the Truth, You’ll Go Crazy

October 27, 2022





I read a lot of books
About psychology and stuff
Crammin knowledge in my head
I’ll never get enough

Tried to figure out
Why some people fall apart
Wondered if the problem’s 
In the head or in the heart

The answer is so simple
And amazy
If you don’t tell yourself the truth
You’ll go crazy

Deception is a poison 
It destroys and complicates
Honesty alleviates
It cures and it regenerates

Living all those lies
Is gonna rot your loving soul
Heal your wounded heart
And let yourself be whole

The answer is so simple
And amazy
If you don’t tell yourself the truth
You’ll go crazy

When you don’t wanna know what you know

October 6, 2022

"To see what's right in front of one's nose needs a constant struggle."
–George Orwell

When you don't wanna know
What you know

It takes a massive toll
It'll singe your living soul

When you don't wanna know
What you know

The fables that you tell
The fiction that you sell

When you don't wanna know
What you know

What people say and do
What's right in front of you

When you don't wanna know
What you know

His face is full of doom
He smells like cheap perfume

When you don't wanna know
What you know

When you don't wanna know
What you know

When you don't wanna know
What you know

by Richard W. Bray


Pretending Away

May 29, 2022

Telling more lies
To prove you aren't a liar
Committing arson
To cover up a fire

Pretending away
Facts that burn your soul
Pretending away
Truth that takes a toll

Festering lilies
Troubles grow like weeds
Caress and fondle
The monsters that you feed

Pretending away 
The pain and the smell
Pretending away
The things you never tell

Cardboard illusions
Menageries of glass 
Forsaken future
Imaginary past

Pretending away
What everybody sees
Pretending away
Your own reality

by Richard W. Bray

The thing that’s always there

January 24, 2022





The thing that's always there
In the alcoves of your mind
The thing that makes you lie
The thing that makes you blind

The thing you never mention
When you try and talk sense
Gossip, movies, politics
And current events

The thing that's deep below
And always at the surface
The ghost in the attic
The phantom in the furnace

Try and stay busy
Avoid, disrupt, deny
Wash your brain with booze
It never leaves your side

by Richard W. Bray

From Wichita to Omaha

January 16, 2022

map to nowhere
You can build yourself a mansion
On a big ole pile of sand
You can fabricate a future
In never never land
You can look inside a mirror
And see a fantasy 
You can dream away your future 
On what's never gonna be

Can't get from Wichita to Omaha
If you're stuck in Timbuktu
The things you did are on the way
To things you're gonna do
You can make believe you're someone else
And dream a happy dream
But being who you wanna be
Starts with coming clean

You can wake up every morning
And tell yourself a lie
You can repeat it and repeat it
Until the day you die
You can keep on treading water
And never wonder why
Or you can grab life by the collar
And look it in the eye

Can't get from Wichita to Omaha
If you're stuck in Timbuktu
The things you did are on the way
To things you're gonna do
You can make believe you're someone else
And dream a happy dream
But being who you wanna be
Starts with coming clean

by Richard W. Bray

escape hatch

December 23, 2021

Escape hatch
In the portals of my mind
Hiding with the lies
That take up all my time

Escape hatch
Nowhere else to go
Putting on a mask
Putting on a show

Escape hatch
Can't avoid my brain
The truth is in the task
The truth is in the pain

Escape hatch
Time to shut the door
Time to cut the con
I don't need it anymore

by Richard W. Bray

The truth that looks you in the eye

September 26, 2021

It’s pretty easy to tell when someone is lying to themself.* But you can never know another person’s truth. And discovering your own truth is an enormous task.


The truth that looks you in the eye
“No reason why this has to hurt” 
Tell yourself another lie

Compare yourself to other guys
“My loser friends are so inert”
The truth that looks you in the eye

Bewildered every time you cry
“I’m self-aware – I’m so alert”
Tell yourself another lie 

Jump off a bridge – expect to fly
“Only fools return to dirt?” 
The truth that looks you in the eye

Deception is your alibi
“I’m guiltless, honest and overt”
Tell yourself another lie

Dismiss your actions with a sigh
“I never aimed to disconcert”
The truth that looks you in the eye
Tell yourself another lie

by Richard W. Bray

*For example, when someone says I don’t care, it usually means they care a lot.

cocoon

September 17, 2021

everything that's right
i discovered long ago
i don't have to listen
cuz i already know

don't need any facts
to show me what's true
my feelings are my guide 
i live my point of view

i don't have any need
for folks who disagree
they're just a bunch of haters
but they'll never hurt me

i need to stay pure
in a very safe space
that's the only cure
for the human race

by Richard W. Bray