
we’re all plugged in
we’re getting our reports
from everybody else
every minute of the day
perhaps we need
a little peace and quiet
before this deficit of solitude
fries all our circuits
by Richard W. Bray

we’re all plugged in
we’re getting our reports
from everybody else
every minute of the day
perhaps we need
a little peace and quiet
before this deficit of solitude
fries all our circuits
by Richard W. Bray

It ain’t what you create
It’s what you do
That’s gonna be important
When you’re through
Who cares if you
Rewrote the record book
When you’re a liar and
A cretin and a crook?
So slap your name across
A thousand walls
But everything that’s built
Is gonna fall
It don’t mean much
Rising to the top
When your private life
Is one gigantic flop
A million statues
Won’t make you a god
When you’re feeding worms
Beneath the sod
It ain’t what you create
It’s what you do
That’s gonna be important
When you’re through
by Richard W. Bray

William Faulkner
According to William Faulkner, it is permissible for an artist to engage in all manner of malfeasance and loutish behavior because “An artist is a creature driven by demons.”
The writer’s only responsibility is to his art. He will be completely ruthless if he is a good one. He has a dream. It anguishes him so much he must get rid of it. He has no peace until then. Everything goes by the board: honor, pride, decency, security, happiness, all, to get the book written. If a writer has to rob his mother, he will not hesitate; the “Ode on a Grecian Urn” is worth any number of old ladies. (h/t Ta-Nehisi Coates)
It is common for supermacho bibulous writers such as Faulkner, Kingsley Amis, Ernest Hemingway and Christopher Hitchens to confuse self-avoiding cowardice and self-destruction with courage and an intrepid dedication to art. Amis, for example, wrote entire books celebrating the wonders of alcohol. Hitchens thought that crawling into a bottle every day was something to boast about and he was dismissive of people who lack the requisite foolishness to become nicotine addicts. In the sick, sad world of Christopher Hitchens, teetotaling joggers are the real losers.
Stephen King, a man who knows a thing or two about both writing and substance abuse, has a name for the hyper-masculine variety of denial celebrated by various dipsomaniacal American authors: The Hemingway Defense.
as a writer, I am a very sensitive fellow, but I am also a man, and real men don’t give into their sensitivities. Only SISSY-men do that. Therefore I drink. How else can I face the existential horror of it all and continue to work? Besides, come on, I can handle it. A real man always can.*
King explicitly rejects all such poppycock. He argues that “[t]he idea that creative endeavor and mind-altering substances are entwined is one of the great pop-intellectual myths of our time.”
Unlike writers such as Faulkner who lack the necessary self-awareness to confront their “demons,” when given the choice, Stephen King wisely selected his health and his family over the bottle. Thus he has no use in mythologizing the inebriated scribbler.
Substance abusing writers are just substance abusers—common garden-variety drunks and druggies, in other words. Any claims that the drugs and alcohol are necessary to dull a finer sensibility are just the usual self-serving bullshit. I’ve heard alcoholic snowplow drivers make the same claim, that they drink to still the demons.
Faulkner asserts that it is perfectly natural and wholly acceptable for a writer to be a scoundrel because a true artist “is completely amoral in that he will rob, borrow, beg, or steal from anybody and everybody to get the work done.”
Sadly, people who think like Faulkner have gotten existence precisely backwards. As King notes, “Life isn’t a support system for art. It’s the other way around.”
William Faulkner notwithstanding, no art is essential to humanity, and no poem, not even one as lovely as “Ode on a Grecian Urn,” is worth the well-being of a single old lady. Humanity will grope along with or without any particular work of art, and Earth will continue to abide long after we’re gone no matter what we do. It is expressly because everything we do is ephemeral that the artist’s humanity is of far greater value than anything he could possibly create.
Perhaps it is a longing for a false sense of immortality that leads people to engage in such diseased thinking. But it’s important to remember that although Hamlet will continue to live on for as long as humanity is extant, William Shakespeare is just as dead as the fellow buried next to him. As Groucho Marx pithily noted: “What has posterity ever done for me.”
Only love conquers death.
*All Stephen King quotations are from his marvelous memoir On Writing
by Richard W. Bray

How about when hope is starved
And dreams fade into dust?
How ’bout when your plans
Disintegrate with rust?
Dreams prepared and baked with love
Crumble to a crust
And hope is a mirage
With nothing left to trust
Who deserves to be the kid
Playing all alone?
Who deserves to hear her dad
Only on the phone?
Childhood deprivations
Don’t set like broken bones
Memories cut like razor blades
Even when you’re grown
Parents die in accidents
Puppies run away
Lovers get impatient
And set off on their way
Keepsakes and mementos
Tatter, crack, and fray
Everything you care about
Crumbles just like clay
by Richard W. Bray

W. H. Auden
Which is more significant, a person or a star?
People could not exist without stars. Not only does our sun provide us with essential warmth, light, and sustenance, but astronomers believe that all solid matter, ourselves included, is made up of the debris from former stars.
Compared to a person, our abiding sun is surely great and grand. But as far as we can tell, a star is neither sentient nor alert to its own existence. So unlike a human being or even a shih-poo who responds to the name of Max, a star will never want for anything.
W. H. Auden ponders his unreciprocated affection for stars and correctly concludes that despite a star’s magnificence, between the two, the poet himself is ultimately “the more loving one.”
Thus human beings gaze at stars with a longing that the stars themselves could never “return.”
Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
And although the breadth of a star’s life is incomprehensible to a human being, a star is nonetheless ephemeral like everything else in our universe. (When the dividend is eternity, all quotients are miniscule.) Someday every star will “disappear or die.”
Getting back to my original question, is a star’s immense, blazing endurance a match for a human being’s cognizance and sensitivity? It’s a rhetorical question, of course. Even if it weren’t a false alternative, the answer would still lie beyond the scope of human imagination. We could not survive in a universe without stars, and as Richard Wilbur inquires,
How shall we dream of this place without us?–
For his part, Thomas Hardy maintains that the “disease of feeling” is overrated, and “all went well” prior to “the birth of consciousness,”
None suffered sickness, love, or loss,
None knew regret, starved hope, or heart-burnings;
None cared whatever crash or cross
Brought wrack to things.
If something ceased, no tongue bewailed,
If something winced and waned, no heart was wrung;
If brightness dimmed, and dark prevailed,
No sense was stung.
Auden is similarly cynical about the ultimate value of human sentimentality:
Were all stars to disappear or die,
I should learn to look at an empty sky
And feel its total darkness sublime,
Though this might take me a little time.
by Richard W. Bray
Daddy said my tender heart
Leads me to pursue
Birds with broken wings
And stray dogs just like you
I’m sorry bout the mixup
I’m sorry I’m a fool
Didn’t mean to spend your birthday
Takin’ shots and shootin’ pool
I’m sorry that you took my car
And wrapped it round a tree
I’m sorry that I hocked my house
And gave my guarantee
I’m sorry I jumped bail
I’m sorry that I ran
I’m sorry that the PeeDee
Found me in my van
Always been I susceptible
To rascals just like you
All it ever got me was
A pocket full of blues
I’m a live tornado
Spewin’ mess and misery
Till I beat the bottle
It’s all I’m gonna be
by Richard W. Bray
Alex lives for beauty
And the memory of a smile
From a love that never was
That continues to beguile
He’s a little ball of bitter
Muffling primal screams
Concocting better days
And waiting on a dream
Walter’s in his workshop
He got himself a plan
Turning lead to gold
He’s gonna be a wealthy man
He’s a little ball of bitter
Afraid to laugh or grin
Holding back on living
Until his ship comes in
Don’t bother with Maria
If you ain’t a wealthy guy
No money means no honey
She got bigger fish to fry
She’s a little ball of bitter
But she ain’t about to quit
Cuz a feller with a fortune
Will be a perfect fit
No Happy Hour for Henry
He don’t waste his life in bars
He’s got an audition
And the ladies love a star
He’s a little ball of bitter
He ain’t livin’ for today
Got no time for losers
He’ll show them all one day
by Richard W. Bray