goofy in the head

November 16, 2016

zznat

I feel my face smiling
All day long
And I can’t stop humming
An old love song

Flowers gonna bloom
The fiddler gets paid
Love is too dizzy
To be afraid

Every step I take
Is a leisurely stroll
And my head is all full
Of Nat King Cole

Flowers gonna bloom
The fiddler gets paid
Love is too dizzy
To be afraid

I’m probably crazy
In this melancholy world
Cuz I’m goofy in the head
For a brand new girl

Flowers gonna bloom
The fiddler gets paid
Love is too dizzy
To be afraid

by Richard W. Bray

I got a previous commitment to my self-respect

November 13, 2016

zzsucker

You think I’ll stand in line
Until it’s my time
To spend all my money
On some wine and dine

You cancelled forty-seven dates
So what’d you expect?
I got a previous commitment
To my self-respect

You went to the restroom
But you never came back
Then I saw you at a club
Making out with Jack

I’d really love to see you
But last time I checked
I got a previous commitment
To my self-respect

You call in the morning
Needing a ride
When you were kicked to the curb
By another guy

I’d really love to help you
But last time I checked
I got a previous commitment
To my self-respect

by Richard W. Bray

my terrible luck (or constants and variables)

November 10, 2016

zzmouth

Can you see them?
See right through them
They have no shield
No secrets to reveal

Terry Hall, Our Lips Are Sealed

everybody knows
why I broke up with Ted
he’s so good at his job
and so lousy in bed

I probably told you
why I broke up with Ray
that silly mama’s boy
calls her six times a day

I guess you figured out
why I broke up with Bart
that hyperactive bowel
always makin him fart

it sure ain’t no secret
why I dumped Mr. White
his crazy sex fetish
and his sick appetite

I don’t have to tell you
why I kicked out that boozer
could never hold a job
such an adorable loser

the guys I go out with
they certainly suck
I’ll never figure out
my terrible luck

by Richard W. Bray

Seven Ways of Looking at a Line of Poetry

November 6, 2016

zzwaking

Anthropologists tell us* that “some time between 75 thousand and 60 thousand years ago” homo sapiens underwent a remarkable change (194). This event occurred “somewhere on the African continent (most likely somewhere in its eastern or southwestern regions)” (193). Suddenly, our already impressive brains developed the capacity for symbolic thought. Our ancestors, who heretofore merely consisted of roving bands of precocious carnivorous weapon-wielding bipeds, were transformed into artists, shamans, scientists, and engineers. World-domination was now only a matter of time.

These new-and-improved brains rendered representational art, handicraft, metaphor, music, dance, language and poetry essential to our existence.

As Kurt Vonnegut notes, this spectacular transformation gave us not only the capacity and the inclination to produce Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony; it also gave us the capacity and the inclination to

burn people alive in the public square for holding opinions which were locally unpopular, or build factories whose only purpose was to kill people in industrial quantities.

I’m seriously into words. I have argued that it’s ultimately impossible to separate language from poetry because our ancestors began playing with words as soon as they began to invent them. Uttered phonemes are automatically poetic just like every basket and every arrowhead homo sapiens produce is a work of art.

Death and disruption at an early age hurt Theodore Roethke into poetry, as W. H. Auden suggests “mad Ireland” hurt W.B. Yeats into poetry. And oh what prodigious poetry Roethke did make! I’m going to spend a little bit of time talking about how to say the third line of a villanelle Roethke wrote called “The Waking” because my brain spends a lot of time thinking about such things.

A villanelle is a nineteen-line Italian form in which the first and third lines are each repeated three times. (I’ve written a few of them myself.) (A smartass once wrote on this blog that “the cool thing about villanelles is that once you’ve written the first three lines, you’re 42% finished.”)

Here’s the first stanza of Roethke’s “The Waking.”

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

I told you the dude was prodigious, right? Anyhow, the first and third lines of a good villanelle must be firm and flexible as much heavy lifting is expected of them. Here are some examples:

Time will say nothing but I told you so.

(First line of Auden’s “If I Could tell You”)

(I think I made you up inside my head.)
(Third Line of Sylvia Plath’s “Mad Girl’s Love Song”)

Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

(Third Line of Dylan Thomas’s “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night”)

Now back to “The Waking.” If a reader must read the same lines four times in a nineteen-line poem, the poet should provide her with options about which words to stress. Here are seven ways to say line three of “The Waking”:

#1 I learn by going where I have to go

Learning is about destination rather than free will.

#2 I learn by going where I have to go

The essential lesson is in the destination

#3 I learn by going (pause) where I have to go

The journey, so to speak, is the destination.

#4 I learn by going where I have to go

The lesson is in the doing.

#5 I learn by going where I have to go

The important thing is that the experience is educational.

#6 I learn by going where I have to go.

It’s imperative to take a certain route that is nonetheless educational.

#7 I learn by going where I have to go.

I find out what I’m supposed to do only by doing it.

by Richard W. Bray

*Ian Tattersall, Masters of the Planet

New Beginning

November 6, 2016

zzzidentity

The past is never dead. It’s not even past.
William Faulkner, Requiem for a Nun

Need to find a new job
A new city
A new wife
Gotta get away
From my dumpster fire life

There’s no new beginning
The past is never gone
There’s no place to hide
From everything you’ve done

Gonna dye my hair
Change the that way I dress
Start talking
With an accent
To escape this mess

There’s nowhere to go
The future isn’t new
It’s built on the past
And everything you do

I need a new name
And a new history
I can be anybody
As long as
It ain’t me

There’s no new beginning
The past is never gone
There’s no place to hide
From everything you’ve done

by Richard W. Bray

Profound Questions without answers by Don Bray

November 1, 2016

zzsniff


Strange creatures—earthlings–formed from unmoltening volcano indigestion,

Water and oxygen from rock chemicals recombined over millions of years

Mixing then arising earthling life–you and me.

We are given to farting and vomiting.

We are attracted to each others’ asses. We reproduce.

We like to sing and dance; not really knowing why we live, prone to war and susceptible to disease.

We create complex math and gods. Then we worship the gods.

Over time hundreds of American Indian cultures die and their gods die with them like “the famous 1,000 lost golf balls.”

Worldwide thousands of gods die.

People believe in the current god crop.

Earthlings won’t admit that they don’t know how they came to be and the gods can’t help.

Neither can science, philosophy or religion.

Discover meaning in the dazzle of life, or in the splendor of the cosmos.

by Don Bray

life only hungers for itself

October 31, 2016
Edna St. Vincent Millay

Edna St. Vincent Millay

Whether or not we find what we are seeking
Is idle, biologically speaking.

Edna St. Vincent Millay, I Shall Forget You Presently, My Dear

Human beings want power, love and pelf
Existence has a conflict at the core
Cuz life only hungers for itself

Sacks of need that always need to tell:
A song, a cry, a whisper and a roar
Human beings want power, love and pelf

With gluttony for ethereal wealth
We parcel and distribute shore to shore
But life only hungers for itself

Consume, consume, consume and shit and swell
An appetite that always asks for more
Human beings want power, love and pelf

We choose up sides, make teams, and then expel
Imaginary lines that lead to war
But life only hungers for itself

We take and trade and name and buy and sell
Our vanity forever keeping score
Human beings want power, love and pelf
But life only hungers for itself

by Richard W. Bray

I wanna be, I wanna be a secular Jew

October 30, 2016

zzzzeinstein

Been searching through philosophy
To find the one that’s right for me
I meditate and think and read
I finally found the perfect creed:

I wanna be, I wanna be
A secular Jew
I really love the Bible
But I don’t think it’s true

The Christians stole their book
Then they said it was old
We give them ghettos and pogroms
They give us comedy gold

Do the Jews have a Pope?
Cuz I was wonderin’ could he
Make me real funny
Like Groucho and Woody?

I wanna be, I wanna be
An outstanding thinker
Like Einstein, Freud, and Popper
Or that hairy-headed Pinker

Anybody out there
Think they got a solution?
Can I appropriate the culture
And skip the persecution?

Where do I sign?
I’ll gladly pay the fee
Is this a club
That would ever welcome me?

by Richard W. Bray

All the Lovin’ Minus All the Pain

October 29, 2016

zzzmanchild

Things that made me want you
Are driving me insane
When I add up all the lovin’
Minus all the pain

I ain’t the type of gal
Who’s gonna grimace and complain
When I add up all the lovin’
Minus all the pain

Think I’ve had enough of standing
Lonesome in the rain
When I add up all the lovin’
Minus all the pain

I can see my future
Swirlin’ slowly down the drain
When I add up all the lovin’
Minus all the pain

You’re just a big ole puppy
I ain’t never gonna train
Time to add up all the lovin’
Minus all the pain

by Richard W. Bray

The man I wanna be

October 25, 2016

zzzhotelman

There’s no one here to carry on
If I stay out the whole night long
Or give a tinker’s damn if I don’t call
I’m livin’ like I wanted to
And doin’ things I wanna do
And nothin’ means a thing to me at all

Kris Kristofferson, From the Bottle to the Bottom

I had a boring, stupid life
I had some kids; I had a wife
I had fuss; I had complain
I had a big ole ball and chain

Now the boys and me
We can all stay out till three
Cuz I’m free to be
The man I wanna be

Can’t be stuck at home at night
I got to roam; I got to fight
I need those dirty city lights
And all those wicked wet delights

Gonna burn the sheets
With every gal I see
Cuz I’m free to be
The man I wanna be

Now I’m stuck in this motel
Guess my plans didn’t go so well
Found lots of hurt and lots of smell
On my one way trip to hell

I got whiskey and tv
In a room that smells like pee
But I’m free to be
The man I wanna be

by Richard W. Bray