Posts Tagged ‘Alcoholism’

Let sober be your superpower

April 19, 2025


You can tweak your neurotransmitters
Every single day
You can live inside a bottle
But the pain won't go away

You can obey your ball and chain
But it isn't very sane
Missing out on all that sunshine
There's such a better way

Let sober be your superpower
In control and not so dumb
Clean and free and unencumbered
Many happy days to come


Building life around addiction
Crashing cars, constructing fiction
You'll always be a victim
When you're crawling in the haze

Quitting’s hard but drinking’s worse
Don't live your curse inside a hearse
The choice is yours if you accept it
Wake up fresh and seize the day

Let sober be your superpower
In control and not so dumb
Clean and free and unencumbered
Many happy days to come


By Richard W. Bray

Tomorrow I’m gonna have ONE day

August 9, 2023

87 days
I had 87 days
I threw it away
And fell back into
Hopeless helpless hell

I called up my sponsor
He sent over a guy
To fill me up with coffee
And take me to a meeting

I cried:
87 days
I had 87 days

He said:
Tomorrow, you’re gonna have one day

Thank God for my sponsor
Thank God I'm alive

Tomorrow I'm gonna have one day

by Richard W. Bray

check your baggage at the station

July 28, 2023

Crazy keeping secrets
That everybody sees
When secrets aren’t so secret
It’s time to set them free

Lies are so convenient
But it's hard to keep track
Check your baggage at the station
And never look back

Reality don’t hide
It was oozing out my pores
I was crashing into sidewalks
And walking into doors

Lies are so convenient
But it's hard to keep track
Check your baggage at the station
And never look back

What I saw in the mirror
Was anybody's guess
I kept on digging deeper
In all my distress

Lies are so convenient
But it's hard to keep track
Check your baggage at the station
And never look back

Waking up sober
And the house doesn’t smell
There’s nothing to trip over
I’m starting to get well

Lies are so convenient
But it's hard to keep track
Check your baggage at the station
And never look back

Check your baggage at the station
And never look back

by Richard W. Bray

Getting drunk and talking shit 

December 24, 2021

On Saturday he comes to town  
And puts some pints of whiskey down 
Getting drunk and talking shit 
All night long till he gets hit  

A mixed-up mess of drink and smell
Living in your private hell 
Getting drunk and talking shit 
Spewing lies and gobs of spit  

Thoughts revealed in wine are true 
Uncovering the real you 
Getting drunk and talking shit 
Such an asshole when you’re lit  

Folks who piss away their lives
Belching lies as sharp as knives 
Getting drunk and talking shit 
Losers don’t know when to quit  

by Richard W. Bray 

I’m too old to be such a dumbass

September 29, 2019

I’m too old to be such a dumbass
Someday, I’ll pay
For each one of my sins
Catting and carousing
Till daylight
St. Peter’s gonna
Curse my silly grin

I’m too old to be such a dumbass
I’m sorry for
The selfish things I done
I left a trail of heartache
And hurting
I gotta say
I had a lotta fun

I’m too old to be such a
dumbass
I’m about to bust
My weary frame
It’s too late for any excuses
I spent a lifetime
Shifting all the blame

I’m too old to be such a dumbass

I feel bad
For all them things I said
I’ve always been
A real late bloomer
I’m gonna change
Right after I am dead

By Richard W. Bray

Masochism is my best friend

July 29, 2019

masochism is lots of fun
my psyche is a loaded gun
I maximize my agony
by blaming everything on me

masochism is really cool
a crackerjack survival tool
I got booze and chemistry
to lubricate my misery

masochism is my best friend
we’ll be together till the end
it puts my nerves on overdrive
and makes me feel so alive

by Richard W. Bray

Never Said I Was Sane

June 29, 2019

You gave me your love
And I threw it down a drain
You should have paid attention
Never said I was sane

Tried to clear out my head
With a pound of cocaine
And a gallon of whiskey
Never said I was sane

I held up an army
Left a pretty big stain
They locked me up for good
Never said I was sane

They gave me some tests
To study my brain
I’m a wee bit psychotic
Never said I was sane

They got me breaking rocks
On a ball and chain
I’m just glad to stay busy
Never said I was sane

by Richard W. Bray

This Crazy Old World

April 27, 2019

.
It’s time to have another drink
Might even take a little toke
Look for some women and some song
Until my sorry ass is broke

Life’s a second hand store
It’s a box of loose ends
I’m gonna feed my bloody heart
Dance like it’s never gonna end

The numbers don’t add up
And the figures don’t compute
This crazy old world
Is just a big crap shoot

Life’s a second hand store
It’s a box of loose ends
I’m gonna feed my bloody heart
Dance like it’s never gonna end

by Richard W. Bray

hang dang dibble

November 3, 2018

I could be a little bitch
But I’d rather be a man
Ain’t gonna let no woman
Tell me who I am

Don’t know hang dang dibble
And I don’t really care
How she’s looking tonight
Or the way she cuts her hair

I’m gonna have another beer
I’m gonna play it where it lays
Till it all disappears
In a honey-colored haze

Don’t know hang dang dibble
And I don’t really care
If she found another lover
To take her everywhere

Don’t matter that she loved me
Like nobody ever did
Won’t get hung up on a feeling
Like a stupid little kid

Don’t know hang dang dibble
And I don’t really care
Living in the past
Won’t never get you anywhere

By Richard W. Bray

The Decency to Die

September 21, 2018

Everything I ever wanted
Showed up and it was you
Then you sighed and said
That you had other things to do…

I found myself a hole
And I filled my guts with rye
But I didn’t have
The decency to die

I soaked up so much hurtin
And I drank my soul dry
But I didn’t have
The decency to die

I fought with every fool
Who had a drink to buy
But I didn’t have
The decency to die

Puking blood and squirting mud
And breathing to be high
But I didn’t have
The decency to die

Today they see me healthy
They smile and wonder why
He didn’t have
The decency to die

by Richard W. Bray