Let sober be your superpower

April 19, 2025


You can tweak your neurotransmitters
Every single day
You can live inside a bottle
But the pain won't go away

You can obey your ball and chain
But it isn't very sane
Missing out on all that sunshine
There's such a better way

Let sober be your superpower
In control and not so dumb
Clean and free and unencumbered
Many happy days to come


Building life around addiction
Crashing cars, constructing fiction
You'll always be a victim
When you're crawling in the haze

Quitting’s hard but drinking’s worse
Don't live your curse inside a hearse
The choice is yours if you accept it
Wake up fresh and seize the day

Let sober be your superpower
In control and not so dumb
Clean and free and unencumbered
Many happy days to come


By Richard W. Bray

All that lives outside us

April 11, 2025

In slow sustained consistent vibration all over outside
Tapping window, streaking roof,
running down runnel and drain
Waking a sense, once more, of all that lived outside of us!

Delmore Schwartz

All that lives outside us
The Gift that grows and guides us
An ocean and a windstorm
And a flame

The sun that warms and feeds us
Though it doesn't need us
I'm pretty sure it loves us
Just the same

Fade into what sustains us
What bleeds and entertains us
What drizzles from above us
Down the drain

by Richard W. Bray

The Tyranny of the Therapeutic

March 27, 2025

I’ve been seeing my psychiatrist
For thirty-seven years
We've almost cleaned up
The mess between my ears

I'm passive-aggressive
With an abnormal brain
I got second opinion
And it turns out I'm insane

I'm neurotic and psychotic
With an overactive id
I've got as much self-control
As a four-year-old kid

I'm masochistic, melancholic
And I can't match my sox
I spend my free time
Inside Skinner's Box

I'm egocentric, schizophrenic
And crazy till the end
I'm on every single page
Of the DSM

My personality disorder
Is self-actualized
And my alter ego
Is just one of the guys

My inner child's an old soul
But I'm still Jung at heart
Regression and depression
Haven't stilled my manic heart

by Richard W. Bray

Drowning in resentment on an endless doom scroll

March 17, 2025

Milton was right 
We make our own hell
You won't find salvation
In a wishing well

Drowning in resentment on an endless doom scroll
Thinking a mirage was gonna make your life whole


You weren't living a life
You were playing a role
Searching your feed
For a new heart and soul

Drowning in resentment on an endless doom scroll
Thinking a mirage was gonna make your life whole

Leaching off the shadow
Of a fancy façade
Staring into the void
And mistaking it for God

Drowning in resentment on an endless doom scroll
Thinking a mirage was gonna make your life whole


by Richard W. Bray

Regret and doom and wasted days

March 13, 2025

And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,

T.S. Eliot

Persistent pain in memories
A cup, a couch and you and me
I'd rather howl and sing with trees
Than try and explain

What I said and what I meant
Tattered talk of betterment
Love was lost or was it spent?
Is anybody sane?

Terrified to close the mouth
Comfort when the words come out
Streams and streamers spit and shout
Alleviate the brain

There's no returning, you and I
Round the moon and by and by
Fog that fills the earth and sky
It leaves a dreary stain

Through the yellow nightmare haze
Regret and doom and wasted days
You can't fool fate in Shakespeare plays
You can't escape the rain

by Richard W. Bray

If somebody’s disappointed I don’t really give a damn

March 9, 2025

Cool sunny days
Unavoidable delays
Men in orange shirts
Keeping people safe

I'm alright
I know who I am
If somebody's disappointed
I don't really give a damn


Losers from hell
Ain't got no mental health
Complain complain complain
About everybody else

I'm alright
I know who I am
If somebody's disappointed
I don't really give a damn

Respect your neighbors
Try and love your foes
Know what to hold on to
Know when to let go

I'm alright
I know who I am
If somebody's disappointed
I don't really give a damn


by Richard W. Bray

You can’t go back to nothing even if you thought it was something

March 5, 2025


You can't go back to nothing
Even if you thought it was something


You can't resurrect
Something that was
Never alive
I got myself wrecked
Too stupid to suspect
It was a lie
The dream
I thought I had
Was so much worse
Than bad
How could she ever
Love another guy?

You can't go back to nothing
Even if you thought it was something


She stomped
On my head
Left my body
For dead
Half frozen barely breathing
In the snow
That's when I knew
The love
I thought was true
Was just
A dilly dally
Do-si-do

You can't go back to nothing
Even if you thought it was something


by Richard W. Bray

duped, dumped and damaged

February 20, 2025


I've been dumped
I've been damaged
I've screamed at slamming doors
Every man's a demon
I can't take it anymore

Decimating dreams
With their underhanded scheme
s
You can't avoid their stankage
From Omaha to Anchorage


They learn it
From their mothers
Who never taught them right
And their two-timing daddies
Out carousing every night

Decimating dreams
With their underhanded schemes

You can't avoid their stankage
From Omaha to Anchorage


I've been duped
I've been ghosted
I've heard a million lies
Dirty slimy scallywags
What is wrong with guys?

Decimating dreams
With their underhanded schemes

You can't avoid their stankage
From Omaha to Anchorage


by Richard W. Bray

careless stupid cruel

February 9, 2025


Carless stupid cruel
Lord I'm such a fool
To hurt the one
With love so true
In my glass
I darkly see
A cavalcade
Of misery
Line em up
This round's on me


Honky tonks
And dark saloons
Stumbling neath
A harvest moon
One night stands
Destructed dreams
Reflecting on
My misery
Line em up
This round's on me


by Richard W. Bray

All you coastal elites…

February 7, 2025


You got your PhDs
And your fancy degrees
Think you can tell me who to judge
I'm bored with your permission structures
And your values clusters
Cuz I don't need a nudge

All you coastal elites
Can suck my dirty old feet


I'm just a plain and simple man
But I still understand
When I'm being bought and sold
Take your algorithms
Take your marketing decisions
And just shove em down a hole

All you coastal elites
Can suck my dirty old feet

All you coastal elites
Can suck my dirty old feet


by Richard W. Bray